放晴
Monday, June 25, 2007
放晴
“不！不！不要！你放開我！求求你！……不！”她尖叫一聲，從濕透了的床褥中驚醒。又做惡夢了，又是同一個夢！
應該不算是夢，是她親身經歷，讓她痛不欲生的今生惡夢。
她倒抽了一口氣，事情發生已經有十年了，心中的惡魔還是揮之不去，不堪的回憶深深地烙在她心裡，痛得她不能反抗。
她總是讓自己忙透了，倦極才忐忑不安地入眠。可是，每一個深夜，同一個情景和主角總是反覆上映，她已經快崩潰了！
不管多少顆的安眠藥都無法讓她遠離那個惡夢。
她依希記得那個晚上，她已經入眠了，矇矓中，一個滿身酒味，且夾雜著汗臭味的身體壓了上來。
她記得媽媽硬咽的聲音，伴隨著一連串的捶打聲尖叫著：“你這禽獸不如的東西，借酒行凶！你趕快滾，別傷害我的女兒！她只有14歲，你放開她！”
可是，那男人一手推開了媽媽，媽媽一頭撞向桌子的一角，流血暈過去了。
她根本來不及反應，只聽到那個男人，她的後父正對她不規矩。
耳邊還傳來他那把不知廉恥的聲音，她掙扎的舉動完全無法發揮作用，只能任他霸王硬上弓……
媽媽醒來後無法接受這事實，竟然跳樓自盡了。她也嘗試自盡，可是卻竟然獲救，真不曉得是她幸運，還是不幸。
後父最終被警方逮捕了，而她在福利局的安排下接受心理醫生的治療。
長大後，她身邊不乏追求者，可是那段不堪的過去，令她不敢接受任何人的愛意，身邊更沒有任何一名密友，深怕別人知道她的秘密。
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公司最近來了一名年紀相若的帥氣男生，他溫柔多情的眼神凝視她時，不禁令她有些失措，心裡產生了微妙的感覺。
那男生總是有意無意地親近她，讓她的心猶如小鹿般亂撞，可是她不敢接受他，總是回避著他。
但是，她的迴避並沒有讓男生放棄，他依舊努力地制造兩人相處的機會。
對他，她一直強迫自己遺忘，可是，越是限制自己，心裡對他的在意就越來越濃厚，令她很是懊惱。
男生終於鼓起勇氣約會了她，想了好久，她終於答應赴約。
那天晚上，他倆度過了一個美麗的夜晚。回家之前，他們來到了寂靜的公園，男生情不自禁地牽起了她的手。
湧現的記憶讓她不自覺地大力甩掉了男生的手，頭也不回地大步向前走去。
這個情況嚇著男生，連忙追上前去，卻看見她神情激動，滿眼淚珠的畫面。
“對不起，發生甚麼事了？我做錯了甚麼嗎？對不起，都是我的錯，你別哭了，好嗎？”
她看著眼前激動的他，一時間不曉得該說甚麼，突然喃喃自語道：“我為甚麼會遇見你？我為甚麼會喜歡上你？我很痛苦……”
男生被她突如其來的反應嚇得頓了一下，過後才說：“如果你也喜歡我，那應該是件值得高興的事，不是嗎？你放心，我會真心對待你和疼惜你的。”
“不！你不可以喜歡我！我更沒有資格喜歡你！我很骯髒……”聽完了男生的那席話，她突然崩潰了，邊說邊哭喊著，訴說著她的故事。
聽了她的話後，男生整個腦袋空白了，不曉得該如何安慰她。可是，她對他怔住的畫面卻有了一番的解讀。
“我早料到你會介意，我不該奢望……”她試著去拭去臉上淚珠，可是眼淚卻像雪球那樣，越滾越多。她黯然地轉身，踏著沉重的腳步離開。
男生見她轉身離開，仿彿突然從睡夢中驚醒般，往前衝上去擁著她，滿臉愧疚地說： “對不起，我不是介意，我是心疼！心疼你年紀輕輕要遭受這種痛苦！”
“我要告訴你，我喜歡的是現在的你，不管以前怎樣，都讓它過去吧，我會好好愛護你的。”
兩人緊緊相擁，她的眼角還是流下了眼淚，不過，這次的卻是開心的眼淚，他終於走入了她的世界。
她的人生終於可以晴朗如夏日，放晴了。
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想見你
Sunday, June 24, 2007
想見你
你也許會相信，也或許無法相信我此刻的感覺，但我只想告訴你，那是千真萬確的。
我衷心地感謝上天，讓我失去的只是聲音，而不是光明，沒有失去看見你的每一刻。
在意外發生的瞬間，我記得你用身子護著我，那一刻，我擔心的不是自己的安危，而是你。
在車子猛烈打滑的剎那，我聽到你的心跳聲是多麼地激烈，還來不及思考發生甚麼事，我在猛烈的衝擊下撞傷了頭，陷入昏迷狀態。
迷糊中，我仿佛靈魂出竅，來到一個虛無飄緲的空間。
“啟健，啟健，你在哪裡？你聽見我在叫你嗎？”驚惶失措的我孤單無助地在那無盡的迷霧中徘徊，那走不到盡頭的路讓我不知何去何從。
白茫茫的一片霧，把我困住了，除了我自己，我誰也看不見，誰都找不到。
我在哪裡？我到底在哪裡？害怕的我像個小孩般瑟縮在一角不斷哭泣，一直哭到我累了，才聽見一把聲音自上方傳來。
“真是個可憐的孩子哪！還這麼年輕，還有著大好前途，怎麼會來到這兒呢？”
抬起頭，一名白髮蒼蒼的婦人同情地望著我說到。
“你是……”婦人雖滿頭白髮，但她那細緻絕美的五官與臉蛋卻是個不折不扣的美人兒，和那頭華髮一點都不搭調。
身穿古代服裝的她手中還拿著一把黑得發亮的紙扇，她動作輕輕柔柔地，一扇一扇地讓那白花花的銀絲隨著微風輕拂，仿佛是個不食人間煙火的仙子般。
“姑娘，你既然來到這兒，就是與我有緣。你命中注定會有這一劫，所以就算你能活著回去，也必然得失去一些重要的東西……”
婦人緩緩開口，我一聽見能回去，立刻緊捉她的手乞求她幫助。
“請你救救我，我還不想死，我還想見啟健和我的家人一面……”
一思及此，不爭氣的眼淚就不停地滑落，滴濕了她的絲袖。
“姑娘你別著急，你必然能重回陽間，只是……”
“只是甚麼？請你告訴我，無論要付出甚麼代價，我都願意！”聽我這麼說，她只是輕嘆了一口氣。
“你只有兩條路，一是從此失明，看不見任何事物，從此生活在黑暗中；二是從此沉默，無法發出任何聲音，再也不能說話。這兩者之間，你做何選擇呢？”
她的話，讓我的心涼了半截。為甚麼我一定非選不可？為甚麼我不能回到當初的日子，做個健全的人？
“姑娘，這是你的宿命啊！前世的你，讓他賠上了一條命，今生的他又在危急關頭搶身相救，救了你一命，你欠他的實在太多了。若今生你無法償還，下輩子就無法繼續你們之間的緣了啊……”
傻傻地看著眼前這樣貌慈祥的女子，我只覺得一切都很謊謬。
“姑娘，時間不多，你必需做個決定，否則時辰一過，連我也幫不了你呀！”她的話再次驚醒了我。
也許這是夢吧。在夢中，又何需太認真？我像是突然開了竅似的，喃喃自語道：“我想見他，我好想再見他一面，我要看看他有沒有受傷……”
說著，我留下了眼淚。當我意識到眼淚從冰涼變成溫熱時，我發現自己的靈魂似乎回到了軀體，而我也聽見了他的呼喚……
緩緩睜開眼，我看見那張憔悴不堪的臉，一雙因疲累而布滿血絲的眼睛。
“你醒了？太好了，你終於醒了！喜兒，你看得見我嗎？我是啟健，你認得我嗎？你聽得見我在說甚麼嗎？你昏迷了一個月，醫生說……”
他緊擁著我良久，深怕我會再次離開他似的。
淚水模糊了我的視線，當我欲開口說話時，才驚覺自己已發不出任何聲音。
“啊……”只見啟健心疼地望著我，不停地搖頭掉淚。
“喜兒，不管你變成怎樣，我都一樣愛你。我會照顧你一輩子，相信我！”
是因為我做了選擇嗎？因為想見他，所以我失去了聲音……
雖然這件事很荒唐，但我卻平靜得令人吃驚。也許，我從來都不后悔自己的決定，因為能看見他，我就滿足了……
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謝謝你
謝謝你
站在一間簡陋小木屋的籬笆外，木屋的一旁有一塊土地，而且種植了許多木瓜樹、芒果樹及各種各樣的蔬菜。
此時微風輕輕地吹到我的臉上，我的心是多麼地平靜靜啊！一顆平靜的心隨著回憶開始有不一樣了。
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在我14歲那年，美好的家庭因父親有外遇而破碎了。父親拋下家庭不顧，剩下我與母親相依為命。
失去父親的我非常傷心，也非常痛恨他。久而久之，我從性格開朗的小女孩變成一位不愛說話，而且常常會情不自禁地虐待自己，從中舒解自己的心情。
同學們被我手上各種各樣的疤痕嚇著了，全部都離我遠遠的。班上老師對於我的舉動也不大理會，任由我自生自滅。
有一天，我不小心撞到隔壁班的大姐大。
“對不起……”我道歉後就準備往課室走去，那個大姐大卻突然用手拉著我。
“不要以為說聲對不起就可以了，我知道你是隔壁班的怪女孩。”大姐大放開手，大聲對我說道，我沒理會她，繼續朝課室方向走去。
“喂！”她大力推了我一下。
“我已說對不起了，你要怎樣？”我生氣地說道。
“唉唷！生氣啦！我就是想看妳生氣的樣子呢！大家都知道妳父親有外遇而不要你和母親。喂，是不是你母親長像醜陋？還是因為你母親生下妳這怪胎？”大姐大說道。
“妳太過份了！”我生氣地揮起拳頭，把心中的憤怒都集中在拳頭，朝大姐大打過去。豈料，我非但沒有未擊中她，還被她推倒在地上。
我的裙子往上翻，大腿上自虐的疤痕赤裸裸地展現出來。四周的同學都看見了，他們看來仿彿嚇了一跳。
大姐大提起腳向我的背部踢了一腳，絲毫沒有停下來的意思。
“停下來！”大姐大聽到老師的叫喊，趕快離開現場。
“這位同學，妳沒事吧！”那個老師溫柔問道。
“不必妳管！”
那天放學的時候，我獨自離開學校。
“林佩芝同學！”那個制止了大姐大的老師喊道。
“找我有事嗎？”我冷冷問道。
“你住哪裡？老師有車，可以載妳一程。”老師說道。
“不用了！”我又冷冷說道。
“我是新來的老師，你可以叫我陳老師。”
“我沒興趣知道。”說完我就轉身離開。
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在幾個月裡，陳老師不斷找機會與我閒聊，但都被我拒絕了。
有一天，母親因工作太勞累而病倒了，我實在很害怕會連母親也失去了。放學後，我躲在學校某個角落哭泣。哭著哭著又拿起刀片朝我的大腿割去。
“不！”陳老師喊道，同時沖上前欲搶走我手上的刀片。
“放開我！”我拼命地掙扎。一個不小心，刀片劃傷了老師的手，流血了。
“為甚麼？”老師問道。
“為甚麼我那麼不幸？我父親不要我了，同學說我是怪胎。現在我母親又進院了……”我哭著說道。
“啪。”陳老師突然賞了我一個耳光。
“我打你這一巴掌，是要你清醒一些，愈是抱怨自己不幸，對自己就是最大的不幸啊！雖然妳失去父愛，但妳還有母親的愛、老師的疼愛及同學的疼愛。”
“可是，老師及同學都說我是怪胎……””
“只要把你那封閉的心打開，接受我們就可以了。”
“我做不到……”我哭道。
“天下沒甚麼事做不到的，只要你勇敢踏出第一步就行了。我相信你母親也不想自己的孩子這樣。別傷害自己和疼愛了，勇敢踏出第一步吧！”
“對不起！”我哭倒在老師懷抱裡，把過往的傷心都發洩出來了。
“好孩子！哭吧！過了今天，就是你重生的日子。”老師溫柔地說道。
從那天起，我努力念書來報答母親及老師的期望，班上同學也接納我了。我順利考進大學，幾年后，我也成為了一名中學老師。
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“林佩芝，怎麼站在那兒不進來呢？快進來！”一名年已年約七十歲的婦女喊道。她，就是陳老師了。
“陳老師，教師節快樂！”我把手上的禮物送給陳老師。
“唉唷，為甚麼每年教師節都送禮物給我呢？我只希望你勇敢地過生活就心滿意足了。”
“今天是教師節，也是我的重生的日子。”我永遠都不會忘記，我的重生日也是教師節。
“老師，這麼多年了，還是要跟你說一句謝謝！”我與老師互相擁抱。這擁抱表達我對老師的感謝，再次謝謝老師。
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生離VS死別
Thursday, June 21, 2007
生離VS死別
籌備了一年的婚禮今天終於盛大舉行。子晴幸福的挽著丈夫的手臂，接受親朋戚友的祝福。
說實在，子晴很感謝上天讓她與霖生相戀，現在有情人終成眷屬。
婚後的新婚生活讓子晴覺得自己是最幸福的妻子。霖生的體貼和無微不至，讓子晴沉溺在愛河之中。他們一同上下班、一同吃飯、定時去看電影，生活像婚前那樣恩愛，沒有一絲改變。
一天，子晴突然覺得有些不舒服，不斷作嘔，霖生出門前煮了一碗白粥給她。
“不要離開我。”子晴睡得朦朦朧朧。
“放心，我回公司交代一下就請假回來，我不會離開你的。”霖生緊緊的擁抱她，然後離開。
子晴睡醒後覺得好了一些，吃完霖生準備的白粥後，子晴突然接到醫院打來的電話，說霖生車禍進了醫院急救，請她到醫院一趟。
“陳太太，我們已盡力。現在只能靠他的毅力度過今晚的危險期。”
午夜12時，霖生突然心跳微弱。子晴正想按緊急摯，眼前卻突然出現一道強光，一個英俊的男子出現在眼前。
他身穿黑色西裝，臉上露出溫和的笑容。
“你……你是？”子晴嚇得說不出話來。
“陳太太，你好。”那男人風度翩翩：“你不需要知道我是誰，可是我知道你現在將要面臨一個重大的抉擇。”
“抉擇？”子晴一頭霧水。
“對。你的先生等會將會離開你，這是個事實，所以現在你有兩個選擇。第一，你可以選擇不做任何改變，讓你愛的人離開。”
他頓了一頓，繼續說：“第二，你的愛人將不會死，但他醒後將會忘掉所有關於你的事，而你的朋友也將不再記得你們之間的關係。”
子晴看著那個人，再看看霖生，躊躇著不知該如何回答。
“我只能給你30秒的時間，”他看了看時間後說：“他們就快來了。”
子晴脫口而出：“好！我要第二個選擇。”她這一刻的念頭只是希望霖生不會死，其他的事她都不管了。
那個男人滿意地點頭說：“好！選擇開始生效。”
突然子晴醒過來，發現自己躺在家裡的床上。她從床上跳起來。
“莫非只是南柯一夢？”她望向床頭的結婚照，已不再了。
子晴趕到公司去，看見同事像往常一樣工作。
“子晴，今天幹嘛遲到？”
子晴一見到霖生，眼淚不由自主流下，還來不及有任何反應，子晴又開始想吐了。霖生扶著她，吩咐同事帶她去醫院。
“子晴你有了身孕，要小心。我知道你丈夫意外去世對你打擊很大，請你要堅強。”
子晴聽到霖生所說的話後，不知所措。
過了幾天，子晴的情緒稍微穩定後，又開始去上班。再次見到霖生，他正派著婚禮請柬。
“子晴，你好點了嗎？記得來喝我和明慧的喜酒哦！”霖生春風滿面地說。
“子晴？”看著在發呆的子晴，霖生很是緊張。
“啊！這是我的辭職信，我想辭職。”子晴把信遞給他。
“我知道你最近發生了很多事，我很替你難過。有甚麼需要幫忙，你不怕告訴我。”
霖生的關心話語，聽進子晴的耳中，讓她覺得很刺耳，因為她想起霖生也曾用同樣的語氣告訴她：“我不會離開你。”
子晴的心情矛盾複雜，一方面恨自己做了那樣的選擇，一方面又恨霖生真的把自己忘得一乾二凈。
“再見了，霖生。你要好好快樂地生活下去。我會永遠祝福你的。”
子晴壓抑內心的掙扎，真心真意的給他祝福。她輕輕擁抱他，然後轉身離開。
“成功企業家蟬聯企業精英獎；霖生明慧夫妻檔合作無間，共創公司業績……”每天注意任何有關霖生的報導，子晴都把它們珍藏起來。
“媽媽，其實你可以改嫁，反正他都已經忘記你了。”19歲的霖思對媽媽說。
“我知道你愛媽媽，可是媽媽已經不能再愛上其他男人了。”子晴對兒子說。
“媽媽，如果現在重新讓你選擇，你會選擇和爸爸生離還是死別？”霖思說中了她的心事。
“如果當初爸爸死了，可他會永遠愛你，你就可以擁有他完整的愛了，不是嗎？”霖思有模有樣地說。
“的確。可若再給我選擇，我還是會救他一命。雖然他已不屬於我的，可至少我還可看見他平平安安的活著。只要他快樂，我的痛苦算甚麼？”
子晴擁抱著霖思，這種感覺就像20年前她擁抱著霖生一樣，未曾改變。這份愛只能深深的埋藏在子晴的心裡，直到永遠永遠。
“霖生，為甚麼這麼多年來你總是跟我保持距離？”明慧問霖生。
“對不起，當初我們不是說好為了家族生意才假結婚的嗎？”
“可你明明知道我不是為了這個……”明慧委屈地說。
“我也是有試過去愛你，可是我的心好像被一個人佔據了，但我又不知道她是誰，只知她對我很重要，我不能辜負她。對不起。”
Y Y Y
對手
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
對手
“年華正茂、漂亮，都是在業界響當當的公關。死因︰近距離刺中要害。死亡日期：14天死1個，24天就會死兩個，兩個月下來就已死了4個。到了本月24號，還會有2人受害。”
今天已經22號了，還有兩天的時間，他當然急如熱鍋上的螞蟻。
午夜12時，警察局內仍然燈火通明。大家都在為這兩個月內接踵而至的4宗凶殺案感到束手無策。兇手幹案手法乾淨利落，除了在死者身上撒下一堆糖果紙外，再也找不到其他線索。
“為何他要在每個死者身上留下一堆糖果紙？”他的雙眉緊皺在一起，百思不得其解。
他叫同事迅速找出有可能成為目標的名字。逐一檢查時，發現了一個久違的名字，兀自跌入沉思中。
X X X X X X X X X X X
“還真訝異，我們少說也有10年不見，幹嘛突然找我？”
“你該知道公關界接二連三的凶殺案。身為警察，我有責任來提醒你這位著名公關小心點。”眼前的朋友，是他在中學的對手。
“是嗎？你這個壞人克星是怎麼當的？到現在竟然對這案件一籌莫展？真可笑！”瑞彤對他冷嘲熱諷。
“話我已說完，不聽就算。”
“謝了！你應該去警告其他人。我交際手腕好，不會有人想陷害我。倒是你，分分鐘會給人告你辦事不力，一生的警察夢，搞不好就這樣斷送了，哈哈哈！”
瑞彤恣意的狂笑，讓海權聽在耳裡感到十分刺耳，拂袖而去。瑞彤看著他的背影冷笑︰“我說過，你永遠是我的手下敗將！”
她眼楮流露出來的凶狠，竟讓人不寒而栗！
X X X X X X X X X X X
夜黑風高，剛辦完活動的可筠準備上車時，聽見背後傳來腳步聲。她提起膽子回頭望，還來不及張開說話，就被蓋著嘴巴。對方以迅雷不及掩耳的速度，把刀刺向她的心髒。她放大的瞳孔里，充滿難以置信的驚駭。
“我說過，阻我者，死！好可惜，你是個多麼漂亮的女生，送這些糖果紙給你陪葬好了。哈哈！”兇手嘴裡咀嚼著糖果，把糖果紙留在她身上。
“你連殺人這種事也做，真狠！”剛好趕到的海權目睹一切，卻來不及救人。
“這招叫甚麼？螳螂捕蟬，黃雀在後嗎？”兇手轉身面對他，根本沒有逃走的打算。
“你是不是想成為我的對手，所以才設計出這樣的一個遊戲？”他單刀直入。
他和瑞彤從中學開始，就是一對互相競爭的對手，卻萬萬沒想到她會變成殺人不眨眼的兇手。
“你只說對一半，另外一半，是我要當個獨一無二的名公關，就不能有這些絆腳石在前面擋著！”她毫無悔意。
“為甚麼你可以這樣狠？難道成為第一，真的那麼重要？”
“重要！沒有了第一，我甚麼都不是。”這句話刺中心裡的傷口，令她整個人陷入歇斯底裡中。
“我從小就生活在你爭我奪的家族中。媽媽為了爭一口氣，總是要我不斷考第1。媽媽說，只有得到第1，我才有糖果吃。不然就不准我吃飯，連喝水都不可以！”
瑞彤仿佛看到小學1年級的自己，在拿到第1名時，媽媽第一次給她糖果的情景。唯一一次，她看見媽媽對自己流露出關愛溫柔的眼神，臉上盡是驕傲的神情。
那時起，她發誓要當個讓媽媽驕傲的孩子。她一直都很努力，甚至不擇手段也無妨。只要媽媽開心，願意給她糖果吃，她就心滿意足。
長大後，她也在追逐名利中，不斷鏟除異己，釀成大錯。但，被勝利沖昏頭的她，把一切當成理所當然，已收不了手。
眼前的瑞彤，其實是她母親一手造成的犧牲品。她只不過是個想要愛的孩子。他對她，多了一分憐憫。
“其實，你發現得比我預算時間遲。如果你記憶好的話，應該記得我每次在得到第1時，就會給自己1粒糖果當獎賞。糖果的牌子，我從來沒有換過。”冷酷的神情再次重回她臉上。
“不是我沒發覺，是我不願意相信你會做這種事。”他痛心疾首的說。
“這世上，還會有人相信我是好人嗎？哈哈哈……”仰天大笑中，她倏然舉起手中的刀，往自己的心髒狠狠刺入。
“不要！”海權奔向前，抱住倒下的瑞彤。
“今天是24號，我計劃要殺兩個人。你阻止不了我的，你永遠都是我的手下敗將。”臨死一刻，她仍然在意輸贏。
“你早預料我會來，對不對？”
她是個絕頂聰明的女人，可惜一開始就走錯方向。
“我手上早就沾滿血，本來就會有這一天。只是，我一直希望將我繩之以法的人是你。因為你是正義之神啊！海權，能不能將我抱緊？讓我能享受人間最後一絲的溫暖？我真的好久、好久，沒有享受到媽媽懷抱裡的溫暖了。”她氣若游絲地哀求。
他二話不說，緊緊抱著瑞彤，直到她斷氣為止。
Y Y Y
meaningful <3
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
meaningful <3
在你心中有这样一个人吗？
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在网上读过这样一篇文章。。。 人生不就是如此吗？许多的也许，也有许多得无法预料。。。可能就是这样。。。 我们不置可否， 不敢放胆去尝试。。 因为往往是赢是输， 决定权不在于我们。。。
在你心中有这样一个人吗？
在你心中有这样一个人吗？
你们能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？
也许为了朋友之间的一起，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见， 你们没有在一起。
也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。
也许你们相遇太早， 还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许你们相遇太迟， 你们身边已经有另一个人。
也许你回头太迟，对方已不再等待。
也许你们彼此在摸索对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。
不过即使你们没在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系。
但你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友多了一份关心。
即使不能个跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。
他又喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里却很清楚，你是真的不希望他追到。
很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了， 常常觉得惋惜。
一些很好的友情，最后因为一句喜欢你。
如果你没有反应，这一段友似乎也很难以为此下去。
这也难怪有些人会不肯踏出这一步。
这部就像一场赌注吗？
说出心里的话后不是成了男女朋友， 要不就连朋友都当不成。
有些是不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，
但却已经不如从前的好，也是可惜， 也是遗憾！
但还有卖有可能是另一种情况：你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友
3:08 AM
Y Y Y
A Forbidden Love Story
A Forbidden Love Story
My story begins a few summers ago. Something was in the air that day. Birds were chirping and everything was alive. I had been depressed for about a year before that day.
I was walking along the beach at the campground when my life would change forever. From a distance I saw a handsome young man admiring me from afar. Are eyes met and it was like nothing I had ever felt before. We began to walk closer together like something out of a movie. I felt on top of the world, my eyes were sparkling and my stomach fluttering, as we walked closer and closer to each other.
When we were together he got on his knee and said the most romantic things he stood up and spoke my fluent language, French. At that point I knew he had my heart. We began to talk and it lasted till 2:00am that next morning. Turns out he lives about 10 minutes from where I was currently living.
After I returned home we started seeing more of each other. He was beginning to get serious. I fought the depression and soon I was glowing with life and he was the world to me. My anything and everything. We had been going out for about 6 months when he met my
mother.
My mother disapproved of him because of his flaw and soon banned me from seeing him. For a while we went out against her will and had 4 more months of endless happiness. I had met someone who I loved and would spend the rest of my life with him.
On our 1-year anniversary we went out to a fancy French Restaurant as were leaving a man came out of the shadows with a gun. He took my purse and Jason's wallet. Someone saw this crime-taking place and screamed at the man to stop. Jason threw himself in front of me and the gun went off. The robber ran off into the night and left Jason to die.
I held him for the longest time as he bled to his death. Right before he died he told me that we would be together again. He said he loved me and that I would always be in his heart. As he drew his last breath my heart was torn in half. He lay there dead in my arm staring at me with his crystal blue eyes.
Jason Died on April 20, 1996. But he will always be in my heart. Whenever the wind blows I can still here him whispering sweet nothings in my ear.
2:54 AM
Y Y Y
Secrets of super happy couples
Secrets of super happy couples
Smart Strategies
Why do some couples seem so head-over-heels? It's not that their lives are any easier or more perfect than yours-- but they do know how to keep the daily grind from eroding their relationship. Get some of what they have by incorporating these happy-couple strategies into your love life.
1. Fall in love all over again. Make a conscious decision to be in love. The more you act as if you are in love, the more you will feel like you are.
2. Remember the good times. Treat your partner like you did at the beginning of your relationship. Make a list of all the things you used to enjoy doing together and add any new fantasies to the list. Plan for them and make them happen.
3. Help your partner feel more loved and secure in your love so that he or she can open up to you and express feelings and ideas without fear of being attacked or judged. Compliment, praise, give a hug. Small gestures make the grandest statements.
4. Don't make unilateral decisions. You're a team in many ways, so act like one. Check in and make decisions together about things large and small. Be willing to compromise.
5. Be present. Train your mind to stay in the moment -- not at work, thinking about the new color you want to paint your kitchen, or how it's time to take the dog to the vet.
6. Pay attention to your physical appearance. Take the time to stay in shape and look good for each other. It does matter.
7. Boost your compatibility. Couples in crisis focus on all the ways they are different, whereas those who are in love zero in on their similarities and think their differences are cute. Build compatibility by taking turns planning activities to do together. If you don't like your partner's choice, don't complain; it's your turn next.
8. Do not place blame. Replace blame and criticism with solutions and tenderness. Problem-solve together -- sit close, hold hands, touch each other's face or hair. Be playful. When was the last time you laughed together? Rent a comedy movie to tickle your funny bone.
9. Plan for sex. Spontaneity is great but smart couples know that good sex doesn't just happen. Like everything else, it takes time and planning.
10. Fact-find -- don't mind-read. You may think you know but you can't assume. You may believe he should know, but that's not fair, either. Always clear up misinterpretations and misunderstandings to make sure they don't throw you both off course.
11. Fight fair -- and by appointment only. Schedule a limited time to discuss a problem and confine your comments to that issue only. It's easier to relax and feel free to enjoy each other when you know you won't be ambushed by a litany of complaints and criticisms.
12. Prepare for checkouts. Even in the closest marriage, everyone needs time alone. Don't take it personally and don't make each other feel guilty if you need to spiritually and emotionally regroup. Just be sure to tell each other when you are checking out (max, one day) -- and when you're checking back in.
2:52 AM
Y Y Y
faithful (:
faithful (:
a girl 15 & a boy 16
they were ex-couples
the girl could not forget the boy
when the boy know about this he smsed
her
boy "forget me .dont b sad. bye. u
will not see me
till then "
girl "do you still love me? "
boy " it is not important"
girl "you can dont love me but you
cannot stop me
from loving you"
boy " i .. i .."
girl " i miss u can?
i cannot forget can?
i dont want to forget can?
i love you can?
i want you can?
that is all i need can?
boy " i dont wish to hurt you ,you
know ?
i dont want you to love me more then i
love you ,
you know ?
i dont wish for you to forget the past
but only the
love bcos i dont want it to b gone
forver. you
know .
i dont want to see you bcos i want to
have the
perfect image of you in my heart. un
tarnished.
i dont want your love bcos love hurts.
i dont want
to see you in pain . "
the girl finally understood how the
boy felt .
she said " with you i can withstand
any pain, any
hurt ,every darkness .
but without you everything is just
like thorns .they
hurt .
i did rather be hurt by your love then
by the
heartbreaking you caused .no matter
what , i just
love you ."
their heart touched each other
their vains tied together
the promised they had lived till now
they are now 75 & 76
they got married at 25 & 26
2:50 AM
Y Y Y
Gers R all Angels~(Traditional Chinese)
Gers R all Angels~(Traditional Chinese)
原來每個女孩都是天使嗎?!
好好照顧陪伴在自己身邊的女孩
每個女孩都是天使的化身
當她愛上一個男孩時
會為了那個男孩而折斷翅膀降臨這世界
所以請不要傷害那個愛你的女孩
因為~她已經沒有翅膀飛回原來的天堂了!!
所有的男生
記得阿
請繼續傳給下一個男生阿!!(女生也可以阿!)
照著傳下去吧
只要你還愛他...就勇敢面對他／她.....
跟他說你愛他／她...
如果你／妳被甩的話...就請不要傷心!....
只要你還愛著他...就請繼續追求他／她..... Gers R all Angels~(Traditional Chinese)
原來每個女孩都是天使嗎?!
好好照顧陪伴在自己身邊的女孩
每個女孩都是天使的化身
當她愛上一個男孩時
會為了那個男孩而折斷翅膀降臨這世界
所以請不要傷害那個愛你的女孩
因為~她已經沒有翅膀飛回原來的天堂了!!
所有的男生
記得阿
請繼續傳給下一個男生阿!!(女生也可以阿!)
照著傳下去吧
只要你還愛他...就勇敢面對他／她.....
跟他說你愛他／她...
如果你／妳被甩的話...就請不要傷心!....
只要你還愛著他...就請繼續追求他／她.....
2:47 AM
Y Y Y
Would you do this for someone??
Would you do this for someone?? A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on the road...
Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on
yourself? Its bugging me...
(In the paper the next day):
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure. 2 people were on it, but only 1 survived.
The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke down, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug 1 last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.
2:45 AM
Y Y Y
一個女生看了會哭,男生會沈默的故事
一個女生看了會哭,男生會沈默的故事
有那麽一對情侶.女孩很漂亮,非常善解人意,偶爾時不時出些壞點子耍耍男孩.男孩很聰明,也很懂事,最主要 的一點.幽默感很強.總能在2個人相處中找到可以逗女孩發笑的方式.女孩很喜歡男孩這種樂天派 的心情.
他們一直相處不錯,女孩對男孩的感覺,淡淡的,說男孩象自己的親人.
男孩對女孩愛甚深,非常非常在乎她.所以每當吵架的時候,男孩都會說是自己不好,自己的錯.即使有時候 真的不怪他的時候,他也這麽說.他不想讓女孩生氣.
就這樣過了5年,男孩仍然非常愛女孩,象當初一樣.
有一個周末,女孩出門辦事,男孩本來打算去找女孩,但是一聽說她有事,就打消了這個念頭.他在家裏呆了 一天,他沒有聯繫女孩,他覺得女孩一直在忙,自己不好去打擾他.
誰知女孩在忙的時候,還想著男孩,可是一天沒有接到男孩的消息,她很生氣.晚上回家後,發了條資訊給男 孩,話說得很重.甚至提到了分手.當時是晚上12點.
男孩心急如焚,打女孩手機,連續打了3次,都給挂斷了.打家裏電話沒人接,猜想是女孩把電話線拔了.男 孩抓起衣服就出門了,他要去女孩家.當時是12點25.
女孩在12點40的時候又接到了男孩的電話,從手機打來的,她又給挂斷了.
一夜無話.男孩沒有再給女孩打電話.
第2天,女孩接到男孩母親的電話,電話那邊聲淚俱下.男孩昨晚出了車禍.警方說是車速過快導致刹車不急 ,撞到了一輛壞在半路的大貨車.救護車到的時候,人已經不行了.
女孩心痛到哭不出來,可是再後悔也沒有用了.她只能從點滴的回憶中來懷念男孩帶給她的歡樂 和幸福.
女孩強忍悲痛來到了事故車停車場,她想看看男孩呆過的最後的地方.車已經撞得完全不成樣子.方向盤上, 儀錶盤上,還沾有男孩的血迹.
男孩的母親把男孩當時身上的遺物給了女孩,錢包,手錶,還有那部沾滿了男孩鮮血的手機.女孩翻開錢包, 裏面有她的照片,血漬浸透了大半張.
當女孩拿起男孩的手錶的時候,赫然發現,手錶的指標停在12點35分附近.
女孩瞬間明白了,男孩在出事後還用最後一絲力氣給她打電話,而她自己卻因爲還在堵氣沒有接.男孩再也沒 有力氣去撥第2遍電話了,他帶著對女孩的無限眷戀和內疚走了.
女孩永遠不知道,男孩想和她說的最後一句話是什麽.女孩也明白,不會再有人會比這個男孩, 更愛她了!
2:42 AM
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What is TRUE love?
What is TRUE love?
THIS IS WHAT LOVE IS ALL ABOUT!
It was a busy morning, about 8:30, when a gentleman in his 80's, arrived to
have stitches removed from his thumb. He said he was in a hurry as he had
an appointment at 9:00 am.
I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over an
hour before someone would to able to see him. I saw him looking at his
watch and decided, since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound.
On exam, it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors, got the
needed supplies to remove his sutures and re-dress his wound.
While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he had another doctor's
appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry. The gentleman told me
no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife
I inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there for a while
and that she was a victim of Alzheimer's Disease. As we talked, I asked if
she would be upset if he was a bit late. He replied that she no longer knew
who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now.
I was surprised, and asked him, "And you still go every morning, even
though she doesn't know who you are?"
He smiled as he patted my hand and said, "She doesn't know me, but I still
know who she is."
I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm, and
thought, "That is the kind of love I want in my life."
True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an acceptance of
all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.
2:40 AM
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If a girl cry for u (:
If a girl cry for u (:
If a girl cries in front of you,
it means that she couldn't take it
anymore.
If you take her hand,
she would stay with you for the rest of
your life;
If you let her go,
she couldn't go back to being herself
anymore.
A girl wont cry easily,
Except in front of the person
who she love the most,
she becomes weak.
A girl wont cry easily,
only when she loves you the most,
she put down her ego.
Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you
please hold her hands firmly,
she's the one who would stay
with you for the rest of your life.
Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you,
please dont give her up,
maybe bcoz of your decision,
you ruin her life.
When she cry rite in front of you,
When she cry bcoz of you,
Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's
feeling?
Think.
Which other girl have cried
wif pure sincerity,
Infront of you,
And bcoz of you?
She cry not because she is weak,
She cry not bcoz she wan sympathy or
pity,
She cry,
Because crying silently is no longer
possible,
the pain,hurt,n agony have
become too big a burden to be kept
inside.
Guys,
Think about it,
If a girl cry her heart out 2 you,
And all because of you,
Its time to look back on wat u have
done,
Only you will know the answer to it.
Do consider it,
Coz one day,
It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "im sorry".
To my friends...
Ponder this message seriously.
Dont do dis to a girl,
You may regret for the rest of your
life.
Maybe in your life,
she's the only one that love
YOU the most.
Girls.. If u eva cry 4 a guy u love a
lot.. repost
this
in 10 minutes & use tis title... 'If a
gal cries 4 u'..
sum1 special will cal u in an hour's
time..
Guys.. If u hav a gal who cry 4 u..
think wat u
should do straight away
2:37 AM
Y Y Y
I love you in 100 languages
I love you in 100 languages
English - I love you
Afrikaans - Ek het jou lief
Albanian - Te dua
Arabic - Ana behibak (to male)
Arabic - Ana behibek (to female)
Armenian - Yes kez sirumen
Bambara - M'bi fe
Bangla - Aamee tuma ke bhalo aashi
Belarusian - Ya tabe kahayu
Bisaya - Nahigugma ako kanimo
Bulgarian - Obicham te
Cambodian - Soro lahn nhee ah
Cantonese Chinese - Ngo oiy ney a
Catalan - T'estimo
Cheyenne - Ne mohotatse
Chichewa - Ndimakukonda
Corsican - Ti tengu caru (to male)
Creol - Mi aime jou
Croatian - Volim te
Czech - Miluji te
Danish - Jeg Elsker Dig
Dutch - Ik hou van jou
Esperanto - Mi amas vin
Estonian - Ma armastan sind
Ethiopian - Afgreki'
Faroese - Eg elski teg
Farsi - Doset daram
Filipino - Mahal kita
Finnish - Mina rakastan sinua
French - Je t'aime, Je t'adore
Frisian - Ik hâld fan dy
Gaelic - Ta gra agam ort
Georgian - Mikvarhar
German - Ich liebe dich
Greek - S'agapo
Gujarati - Hoo thunay prem karoo choo
Hiligaynon - Palangga ko ikaw
Hawaiian - Aloha wau ia oi
Hebrew - Ani ohev otah (to female)
Hebrew - Ani ohev et otha (to male)
Hiligaynon - Guina higugma ko ikaw
Hindi - Hum Tumhe Pyar Karte hae
Hmong - Kuv hlub koj
Hopi - Nu' umi unangwa'ta
Hungarian - Szeretlek
Icelandic - Eg elska tig
Ilonggo - Palangga ko ikaw
Indonesian - Saya cinta padamu
Inuit - Negligevapse
Irish - Taim i' ngra leat
Italian - Ti amo
Japanese - Aishiteru
Kannada - Naanu ninna preetisuttene
Kapampangan - Kaluguran daka
Kiswahili - Nakupenda
Konkani - Tu magel moga cho
Korean - Sarang Heyo
Latin - Te amo
Latvian - Es tevi miilu
Lebanese - Bahibak
Lithuanian - Tave myliu
Malay - Saya cintakan mu / Aku cinta padamu
Malayalam - Njan Ninne Premikunnu
Mandarin Chinese - Wo ai ni
Marathi - Me tula prem karto
Mohawk - Kanbhik
Moroccan - Ana moajaba bik
Nahuatl - Ni mits neki
Navaho - Ayor anosh'ni
Norwegian - Jeg Elsker Deg
Pandacan - Syota na kita!!
Pangasinan - Inaru Taka
Papiamento - Mi ta stimabo
Persian - Doo-set daaram
Pig Latin - Iay ovlay ouyay
Polish - Kocham Ciebie
Portuguese - Eu te amo
Romanian - Te iubesc
Russian - Ya tebya liubliu
Scot Gaelic - Tha gra\dh agam ort
Serbian - Volim te
Setswana - Ke a go rata
Sign Language - ,\,,/ (represents position of fingers when signing'I Love You')
Sindhi - Maa tokhe pyar kendo ahyan
Sioux - Techihhila
Slovak - Lu`bim ta
Slovenian - Ljubim te
Spanish - Te quiero / Te amo
Swahili - Ninapenda wewe
Swedish - Jag alskar dig
Swiss-German - Ich lieb Di
Tagalog - Mahal kita
Taiwanese - Wa ga ei li
Tahitian - Ua Here Vau Ia Oe
Tamil - Nan unnai kathalikaraen
Telugu - Nenu ninnu premistunnanu
Thai - Chan rak khun (to male)
Thai - Phom rak khun (to female)
Turkish - Seni Seviyorum
Ukrainian - Ya tebe kahayu
Urdu - mai aap say pyaar karta hoo
Vietnamese - Anh ye^u em (to female)
Vietnamese - Em ye^u anh (to male)
Welsh - 'Rwy'n dy garu di
Yiddish - Ikh hob dikh
Yoruba - Mo ni fe
2:35 AM
Y Y Y
What does A-Z means to u in ur life;
What does A-Z means to u in ur life;
(A)ccepts u as u are
(B)elieves in "U"
(C)alls u just to say "HI"
(D)oesn't give up on u
(E)nvisions the whole of u (even the unfinished parts)
(F)orgives ur mistakes
(G)ives unconditionally
(H)elps u
(I)invites u over
(J)ust "BE" with u
(K)eeps u close at heart
(L)oves u for who u are
(M)akes a difference in ur life
(N)ever judges
(O)ffers support
(P)icks u up
(Q)uiets ur fears
(R)aises ur spirits
(S)ays nice things about u
(T)ells u the truth when u need to hear it
(U)nderstands u
(V)alues u
(W)alks beside u
(X)-plains thing u don't understand
(Y)ells when u won't listen
(Z)aps u back to reality
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Meaningful
Meaningful
Trust
TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation.
A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. She answered, "Public Utilities Board." There was silence. She repeated, "PUB." There was still no answer. When she was going to cut off the line, she Heard a lady's voice, "Oh, so this is PUB.Sorry, I got the number from my Husband's pocket but I do not know whose
number it is."
Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered with just "hello" instead of "PUB".
NO POINTING FINGERS
A man asked his father-in-law, "Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?"
The father-in-law answered in a smile, "Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than
you."
We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at. This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves.
If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too.
C REATING PERFECT RELATIONSHIPS?
A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested "I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one." The SDU officer said, "Your requirements, please." "Oh, good looking, polite, humorous , sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my
leisure hour, if I don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when I need companion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest." The officer listened carefully and replied, "I understand you need television."
There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband ,because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins.
NO OVERPOWERING
Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another,or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character."
It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.
It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..
RIGHT SPEECH
There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation." Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other,we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party.
A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted,"Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school." On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, "Luckily you married me.Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker." She answered ,"You should appreciate that you married me. Otherwise, he will be the millionaire and not you."
Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship. It's like a broken egg - cannot be reversed.
PERSONAL PERCEPTION
Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home,a boy commented, "Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey?"Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, "The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?" Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey.
Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, "How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman."
The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then, they met a young man. He commented, "Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you." Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders.
It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a narrow bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river. You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future.
Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear..
BE PATIENT
This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital.
Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, " Daddy,I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "but when are my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committed
suicide.
Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.
People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.
2:32 AM
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Take a moment to read this touchin story.
Take a moment to read this touchin story.
My mom only had one eye and I hated her. She was such an embarrassment. She
cooked for students & teachers to support the family.
There was this one day during elementary school and my mom came. I felt so
embarrassed. "How could she do this to me?" I think. I threw her a hateful
look and ran out.
The next day at school, a friend said "Your mom only has one eye?!?!
Eeeee..."
I wished my mom would just disappear from this world. So I said to my mom,
"Mom, why don't you have the other eye?! If you're only gonna make me a
laughing stock, why don't you just die?!!!" My mom did not respond.
I guess I felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think
that I had said what I'd wanted to say all this time. Maybe it was because
my mom didn't punished me, but I didn't think that I had hurt her feelings
very badly.
That night, I woke up and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. I
saw my mom was crying, so quietly as if she was afraid that she might wake
me up. I took a look at her and turned away. Because of the thing I had
said to her earlier, there was something pinching at me in the corner of my
heart. Even so, I hated my momr who was crying out of her one eye. So I
told myself that I would grow up and become successful.
I studied real hard. I left my mom and went to Singapore to study.
Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own and had kids too. Now I'm
living happily as a successful man. I like this place as it doesn't remind
me of my mom.
This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when...
What?! Who's this?!
It was my mom still with her one eye. I felt as if the whole sky was
falling apart on me. Even my children ran away, cause they were scared of
my mom's eye. I asked her, "Who are you?! I don't know you!!!" as if trying
to make that real. I screamed at her, "How dare you come to my house and
scare my children! GET OUT OF HERE NOW!!!"
And to this, my mom quietly answered, "Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten
the wrong address." and she disappeared out of sight.
Thank godness! I was quite relieved that she doesn't recognize me. I told
myself that I wasn't going to care, or think about this for the rest of my
life. Then a wave of relief came upon me.
One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house in ingapore.
Lying to my wife that I was going on a business trip, I went.
After the reunion, I went down to the old shack that I used to call a
house. I found my mom fallen on the cold ground, but I did not shed a
single tear. She had a piece of paper in her hand, it was a letter to me.
"My son, I think my life has been long enough now and i won't visit
Singapore anymore. But would it be too much to ask if I wanted you to come
visit me once in a while? I miss you so much.
I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I decided
not to go to the school. For you, I'm sorry that I only have one eye and I
was an embarrassment for you.
You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident and lost your
eye. As a mom, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with only
one eye. So, I gave you mine. I was so proud of my son that was seeing a
whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. I was never upset at
you for anything you did. The couple times that you were angry with me, I
thought to myself, "It's because he loves me."
2:29 AM
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You have impact my life
You have impact my life
One day, when I was a freshman in high school,
I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.
His name was Kyle.
It looked like he was carrying all of his books..
I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday?
He must really be a nerd."
I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.
As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him.
They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt.
His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him
He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes
My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye.
As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks. "
They really should get lives.
" He looked at me and said, "Hey thanks!"
There was a big smile on his face.
It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.
I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived.
As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before.
He said he ha d gone to private school before now.
I would have never hung out with a private school kid before.
We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books.
He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.
I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends
He said yes.
We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.
Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.
I stopped him and said, "Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!
" He just laughed and handed me half the books.
Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends.
When we were seniors we began to think about college.
Kyle decided on Georgetown and I was going to Duke.
I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem.
He was going to be a doctor and I was going for business on a football scholarship.
Kyle was valedictorian of our class.
I teased him all the time about being a nerd.
He had to prepare a speech for graduation.
I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak
Graduation day, I saw Kyle.
He looked great.
He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.
He filled out and actually looked good in glasses.
He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him.
Boy, sometimes I was jealous!
Today was one of those days.
I could see that he was nervous about his speech.
So, I smacked him on the back and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be great!"
He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled.
" Thanks," he said.
As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began
"Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years.
Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends...
I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them.
I am going to tell you a story."
I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met.
He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.
He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home.
He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.
"Thankfully, I was saved.
My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable."
I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment.
I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.
Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.
Never underestimate the power of your actions.
With one small gesture you can change a person's life.
For better or for worse.
God puts us all in each others lives to impact one another in some way.
Look for God in others.
You now have two choices, you can:
1) Pass this on to your friends or
2) Delete it and act like it didn't touch your heart.
As you can see, I took choice number 1.
"Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly."
There is no beginning or end.. Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is a mystery.
Today is a gift.
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quotes
"Real tears are not those that fall from the eyes and cover the face, but those that fall from the heart and cover the soul."
"It takes a life time to find someone, but only a moment to fall in love."
"If you love someone you give everything you can and not expecting on any return."
"You never truly love a person until the mere thought of you hurting
that loved one is enough to break your own heart"
" Never say goodbye when you still want to try.
never give up when you still feel that you can take it.
never say you no longer love a person when you can't let go.. "
" It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it,
but its also true that we don't know what we've been missing on until it arrives."
" You can fall in love in an instant. It's letting go that takes time."
" A kiss is just a kiss until you find the one you love.
A hug is just a hug until its the one your thinking of.
A dream is just a dream until you make it come true.
Love is just a work until its proven to you. "
" The more you love, the more you lose a part of you.
Yet you dont become less of you are, instead you end up being complete... "
" There are 3 great things in this world.
The first thing is for you to love someone.
The second thing is for someone to love you back
and the third greatest thing is for the first and second thing to happen at the same time ... "
" Love can touch just one time, but it can last for a life time. "
" Don't frown, because you never know when someone is falling in love with your smile. "
" Love wasn't put in your heart to stay, because Love isn't Love until you give it away. "
" Love is like a roller coaster. Once you have completed the ride, you want to go again. "
" It is far better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all "
" I was lonely and scared I asked god for an angel
and he sent me something even better he sent me you. "
" Some people think they have to say they are in love so they believe themselves,
others don't need to say it because they are. "
" Love can be trying and hard to accomplish but
when you have love always hold it close to your heart
because you never know when you have to let it go. "
" The way to know true and selfless love is rather than trying to
change the one you love to fit your way, change instead your way to fit the one you love. "
"Remember not to ever expect love, but do not forget about it either."
" Dreams only last one night but love can last forever "
"If You Love Someone Put Their Name In A Circle Not A Heart,
A Heart Can Break But A Circle Goes On Forever"
"Loving You Is Like Breathing, How Can I Stop?"
"Love Is When You Don't Want To Go To Sleep
Because Reality Is Better Then A Dream"
"If You Love Me Like You Told Me Please Be Careful With My Heart. You Can Take It Just Don't Break It Or My World Would Fall Apart."
"The First Time I Saw You I Knew It Was True. That I'd Love You Forever And That's What I'll Do. You Don't Know What You Do To Me, You Don't Have A Clue. You Don't Know What It's Like To Be Me Looking At You"
"Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worth while, so when you are lonely, remember this is true: Somebody, somewhere is thinking of you."
"Sometimes I wonder if life is really worth it, then I look at your smile and I know it is."
"I love you with all of my heart, body ,and soul. You complete me. You make my life worth living. To have known you and to have loved you has been the most beautiful dream. I can only hope that I never wake up."
"Just the thought of being with you tomorrow, is enough to get me through today."
"You are what happened when I wished upon a star."
"To see you is what my eyes long for, to touch you is what my body longs for, but to love you, my heart has done already for a long time."
“If, each time I thought of you, were a flower I could walk in my garden forever."
"Within you, I lose myself, without you, I find myself, wishing to be lost again."
"I love you not because I need you, But I need you because I love you."
"Gotta let you know that I love you, gotta let you know that I care, gotta let you know that for you, I'll always be there."
"If you ask me about the love, I can't answer you. But if you ask me who I love, the answer is you."
"I hope that I die before you do, my love, because I never want to know the pain of what it's like to be without you."
"The moment I looked in your eyes I fell in love. Every time I look I fall in love again. I've looked so many times, and have gathered so much love. I have so much to carry with me I don't know what to do"
"If living life would mean loving you for the rest of my life, I would take the chance."
"If it's wrong to love you, then my heart just wont let me be right."
"Should I Smile Because You're My Friend Or Cry Because Thats All We'll Ever Be?"
"A Million Words Would Not Bring You Back,
I Know Because I've Tried.
Neither Would A Million Tears,
I Know Because I've Cried."
"Forget The Times You Walked By, Forget The Times You've Made Me Cry,
Forget The Time You Held My Hand, Forget The Sweet Things If I Can,
I Can No Longer Pretend, I Have To Remember Now That You're Just A Friend"
“When I Look At You My Heart Skips A Beat But Later That Beat Could Mean A Lifetime Of Tears Wasted On Something I Knew I Could Never Have"
"How Can You Be Friends With Someone If Everytime You Look At Them It Makes You Want Them Even More?"
"My Heart Was Taken By You, Broken By You And Now Is In Pieces Because Of You"
"As Part Of You Has Grown In Me, Together Forever Shall We Be, Never Apart Maybe In Distance But Not In Heart"
"Its hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone if your heart still does."
"Even when I pour my heart out to you, I'm not sure it shows, that I love you more than you'll ever know."
“Sometimes it's hard to love someone because you're so afraid of losing them"
"I know in reality we can't be together, so I just close my eyes and you're right here with me... in my dreams you're mine forever."
"I was reborn when you first kissed me. Part of me died when you left me. But now I still live, waiting for the day you return to me."
"You are always there for me and so you give me the courage to stand alone."
"The hardest part of dreaming about someone you love is having to wake up."
"There is one pain I often feel which you will never know because it is caused by the absence of you."
"Of all the words of tongue or pen, the saddest are those...it might have been."
"Who do you turn to when the only person who can stop you from crying is the one who is making you cry?"
"I understand that with loves comes pain, but why did i have to love so much?"
"The part that hurts me the most, is knowing that I once had you and then lost you..."
"The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have and knowing it will never be returned."
"Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do."
"How do you heal a broken heart? I have no idea where to start because everything I do reminds me of you. "
"To The World You May Be One Person
But To One Person You May Be The World"
"They Say Love Hides Behind Every Corner, I Must Be Walking In Circles"
"Just Because Someone Doesn't Love You The Way You Want Them To,
Doesn't Mean They Don't Love You With All They Have"
"When I First Saw You I Was Afraid To Talk To You,
When I First Talked To You I Was Afraid To Like You,
When I First Liked You I Was Afraid To Love You,
Now That I Love You I'm Afraid To Lose You"
"If You're Asking If I Need You The Answer Is Forever,
If You're Asking If I'll Leave You The Answer Is Never,
If You're Asking What I Value The Answer Is You,
If You're Asking If I Love You The Answer Is I Do"
"I Do Believe That God Above Put Me Here For You To Love.
He Picked You Out Among The Rest Because He Knew I'd Love You Best"
"It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone,
an hour to like someone and a day to love someone
- but takes a lifetime to forget someone"
"Without you, I have nothing.
But with you, I have everything."
"I can live without any friends,
any family and any money but I can't live without you."
"Late at night when all the world is sleeping,
I stay up and think of you. And I wish on a star,
that somewhere you are thinking of me too"
"Would you be my angel to have and to hold?
Would you be my rose to cherish more than gold?
I love you so much. I wish you were mine,
but all I can do is wait till that time."
"I don't want to lose this feeling.
If I could choose a place to die, it would be in your arms."
"Lovin' you always is like a dream come true,
and someday I hope to become a part of you.
But until that day comes, I will pray that one day you will love me in the same way."
"There's a smile on your face that lets me know that you need me,
there's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me,
the touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall,
you say it best....when you say nothing at all."
"I cannot show you I love you. Time will show you I love you."
"I miss you most when I'm sad. I miss you when I'm lonely.
But most of all, I miss you when I'm happy."
"Look into my eyes and hear what I'm not saying,
for my eyes speak louder than my voice ever will."
"When You Say I Love You Mean It"
"Believe In Love At First Site"
"To Fear Love Is To Fear Life"
"Somewhere There's Someone Who Dreams Of Your Smile,
And Finds In Your Presence That Life Is Worth While,
So When You Are Lonely Remember It's True;
Somebody Somewhere Is Thinking Of You"
"Love Is Like Quicksand:
The Deeper You Fall In It The Harder It Is To Get Out"
"Love Is Running Into His Arms Colliding With His Heart And Exploding Into His Soul"
"If You Get A Chance To See Him, Your Heart Begins To Dance.
Your Life Revolves Around Him, There's Nothing Like Romance"
"A guy and a girl can be just friends but at one point or another one of them will fall for the other, maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late or maybe, just maybe ...forever."
"Life is only worth living once you've found someone worth dying for."
"I could never regret loving you because even if you didn't love me anymore,
I know that you once did and that is the most wonderful feeling
because I never thought that I deserved your love."
"Sometimes in love you must accept the fact that what makes the person
you cared about happy might on the other hand leave you so lonely."
"True love is, when everything in the world is going wrong, all you have to do is look at that special person and, suddenly, everything in the world is right again."
"Love is just a word till someone you meet gives it a meaning."
"A love so pure and true will never die...
it lives in the depth of your heart until the end of time."
"The essential sadness is to go through life without loving. But it would be almost equally sad to leave this world without ever telling those you loved that you love them."
"Loving someone is loving that someone despite that person's flaws and weakness."
"Love starts with a smile grows with a kiss and ends with a tear."
"When you are in love nothing matters except that the other person is happy."
"You fail to see the one who loves you standing right in front as does she fail to see you love her in turn. Don't wait to tell her because it might be to late then."
"If she is the first thing you think of when you wake up, the only thing you think of when you're awake, and the last thing you think of before you go to bed, then she is really somebody special."
"You know you love someone when you cannot put into words how they make you feel."
"You may not have heard me speak to you that I love you, but the way that I look into your eyes, the way I smile when you pass by, and the way that my heart feels when you are near...
all speaks of what best describes the love that I feel."
"I don't need anyone to take advantage of my weaknesses or my strengths,
I need someone who will appreciate me for everything that I am."
"People won't remember what you did.
People won't remember what you said.
But, people will remember how you made them feel."
"True love is falling in love with your best friend,
and only then, will you find the meaning of happiness."
" Never say 'I like you' if you don't care. never talk about feelings if they're not there.
never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. "
" It's hard to live alone, its hard to choose someone to love,
but the hardest part of falling is to admit that you have fallen in love
with someone you didn't mean to love from the start... "
"We all want to fall in love.
Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive.
Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified,
our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens.
It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon.
But that doesn't diminish its value.
Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives."
"Love is not measured by how you feel,
but how you make the other person feel."
"When traveling the path of life, and finding love along the way,
everything looks new and different. Little do you know
it is the same old landscape you used to see all of the time;
love has just given you new eyes."
GOD puts a certain person in our Lives for a Reason,
And whatever Reason that GOD had in mind for putting you into mine...
I don't mind... I am just thankful HE did.
"Love may mean taking chances, but their worth taking."
"Love, is letting go of fear "
" So often we don't say 'I love you' because we fear losing someone,
but more often we lose them because we fear saying 'I love you' "
" At least be there to wipe away my tears if you're going to make me cry. "
" If you love someone, tell them... for hearts are often broken by words left unspoken. "
Falling in love is like being struck by lightning.
You can no more make it strike you than you can avoid it.
Women are like telephones;
They like to be held and talked to,
but if you push the wrong buttons you might get disconnected!
Love is a misunderstanding between two fools.
Dating is like a test drive,
you keep trying until you find the right one.
No one will ever win the battle of the sexes.
There's too much fraternizing with the enemy.
I know the door to your heart belongs to another,
but I think I can slip in through the window.
Behind every good man stands a suprised mother-in-law.
Love is as simple as a mouse trap, easy to fall into,
hard to get out of, and could be deadly
" When you look into their eyes and you see the sun,
then you know it's the ONE. "
"Love is like a four leaf clover hard to find lucky to have."
" You'r heart is one of your most prized possessions,
be careful who you give it to. "
" Guys are like stars, there are millions out there,
but only one can make your dreams come true. "
No man is truly married until he understands every word his wife is NOT saying.
Love is the answer, but while you're waiting for the answer,
sex raises some pretty good questions.
Sex without love is an empty experience,
but as empty experiences go, it's one of the best.
"When you have nothing left but love, then for the first time you become aware that love is enough."
"In your absence my heart grows stronger. In your presence I fall in love again."
"Loving you is what I've learned so easily. Trying to forget you is the last thing I could possibly learn because I'm deeply in love with you."
"I didn't know I was looking for love until I found you."
"Whenever we're apart it feels like a part of me is missing... and then I remember, you have my heart."
"Why do I love you?" "Because I finally learned what the word means, and you were the one who showed me."
"I would give up everything for one moment with you; for one
moment is better than a lifetime of not knowing you"
"Each time i miss u, a star falls down from the sky. So, if u looked up at da sky, n found it dark wit no stars , it is all ur fault, You made me miss u 2 much.."
"I never loved you more cause I never loved you less, I dont love you now coz I will love you always, I dont just love you coz I love you more than "I love you" can say ..."
"You justify my existence ... if i have not known you, I wouldn't have lived, if I die with out knowing you, I wouldn't die coz I didn't live at all ..."
"If I could have 3 wishes, I wouldn't wish for the stars, the moon, the riches and this life. But for 25 hours a day, 8 days a week, and 13 months a year to spend a longer time with you."
" The sun can have the sky and it wouldnt matter. The night can have its stars and i woudnt care. tomorrow can be majestic yet remain empty, for it simply wouldnt matter without you there. "
"Although I have but one heart to lose, cause I’d rather have had one breathe from
your hair, one touch from your hand, and one hug from you, than eternity without it."
"Have you ever noticed that the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and you can never have them?"
"I'm afraid to love afraid to love so fast, because every time I fall in love it never seems to last."
"We were like Romeo and Juliet. I thought we'd do anything for each other. But Romeo didn't break Juliet's heart."
"Don't Cry Over Someone That Won't Cry Over You"
"No Guy Is Worth Your Tears & When You Find The One That Is He Won't Make You Cry"
"If You Really Love Something Set It Free.
If It Comes Back It's Yours, If Not It Wasn't Meant To Be"
"Some Day You'll Cry For Me Like I Cried For You,
Some Day You'll Miss Me Like I Missed You,
Some Day You'll Need Me Like I Needed You,
Some Day You'll Love Me But I Won't Love You"
"Time will make you forget me but time will make me love you more than before."
"If I never met you, I wouldn't like you. If I didn't like you I wouldn't love you.
If I didn't love you I wouldn't miss you, but I did, I do and I will."
"My heart longs for you, my soul dies for you,
my eyes cry for you, my empty arms reach out for you."
"Forget who hurt you yesterday,
But don't forget who loves you tenderly today."
"Love can make you happy but often times it hurts,
but love is only special when you give it to who its worth."
"Boyfriends come and go, but friends are forever."
"The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go,
and knowing when to say goodbye."
"Forget the times he walked by, Forget the times he made you cry,
Forget the times he spoke your name, Remember now your not the same.
Forget the times he held your hand, Forget the sweet things if you can,
Forget the times & Don't pretend, Remember now he's just your friend."
"The day you finally decide to love me will be the day
after the day I have given up on chasing you"
"I hate to see the one I love happy with somebody
but I surely hate it more to see the one I love unhappy with me..."
"I had a dream and it was about you ...
I smiled and recalled the memories we had ...
then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes ... you know why?
Coz in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye ..."
"If in this lifetime, I wont get to have you,
I'll make sure that if I meet you in my next life
I wont have to think twice on saying that "I waited a lifetime to say I love you...""
"Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult"
"I dont miss him, I miss who I thought he was"
"If someone you love hurts you cry a river, build a bridge, and get over it."
"Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours."
"I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh,
so you don’t see me cry,
I’m going to let you go in style,
and even if it kills me - I’m going to smile."
"Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart."
"The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost."
"The hottest love has the coldest end."
"Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go."
" For few love can last a lifetime,
but for many not knowing when to let go can hold them back forever. "
"If this is goodbye,
don't come back
if this is the end,
don't wake me up."
" You broke me, you broke my heart, you broke everything! You
turned my world upside down and inside out, BUT I know it was worth it for
that one moment of love we had, it's a shame it went bad..
You walk by me everyday and say hello.
Everyday you take time out to listen to me.
You talk to me, smile at me,
laugh with me, and have fun with me.
Well, I talk, smile and laugh too,
but inside I'm hurting.
Deep down it hurts to be with you because
I love you and you are only a friend.
One day you'll ask me, "which is more important to you, me or your life"
I'll say, "My life" and you'll go and leave me with out knowing that you are my life...
It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye.
Never be sad for what is over,
just be glad that it was once yours.
The hardest part of loving someone
is knowing when to let go,
and knowing when to say goodbye
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For a reason or a season ...
For a reason or a season ...
People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant .
Thank everyone who has been a part of your life, whether they were a reason, a season or a lifetime.
1:54 AM
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Farthest Distance in the world
Farthest Distance in the world
The farthest distance in the world
Is not the distance between life and death
But you don't know I love you when I stand in front of you
The farthest distance in the world
Is not you don't know I love you when I stand in front of you
But I cannot say I love you when I love you so madly
The farthest distance in the world
Is not I cannot say I love you when I love you so madly
But I can only bury it in my heart despite the unbearable yearning
The farthest distance in the world
Is not I can only bury it in my heart despite the unbearable yearning
But we cannot be together when we love each other
The farthest distance in the world
Is not we cannot be together when we love each other
But we pretend caring nothing even we know love is unconquerable
The farthest distance in the world
Is not the distance between two trees
But the branches cannot depend on each other in wind even they grow from the same root
The farthest distance in the world
Is not the branches cannot depend on each other
But two stars cannot meet even they watch each other
The farthest distance in the world
Is not the track between two stars
But nowhere to search in a tick after two tracks join
The farthest distance in the world
Is not nowhere to search in a tick
But doomed not to be together before they meet
The farthest distance in the world
Is the distance between fish and bird
One is in the sky, another is in the sea
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quotes
1) It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never to find the courage to let that person know how you feel. 2) Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.3) Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, and the romance in a relationship--and to find out you still care for that person. 4) A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go. 5) When a door of happiness closes, another opens but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the ones, which has been opened for us. 6) The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and have the best conversation you ever had.7) It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.8) Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart, but if it doesn't be content it grew in yours.9) There are things you'd love to hear that you would never hear from the person whom you would like to hear it from, but don't be so deaf as not to hear it from the one who says it from the heart. 10) Never say goodbye if you still want to try; never give up if you still feel you can go on; never say you don't love a person anymore if you can't let go.11) Love comes to those who still: hope although they've been disappointed, to those who still believe although they've been betrayed, need to love those who still love although they've been hurt before. 12) It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone - but it takes a lifetime to forget someone. 13) Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Hope you find the one that makes you smile. 14) There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real! Hope you dream of that special someone.15) Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do. 16) May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, enough hope to make you happy and enough money to buy me gifts!! 17) Always put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that it
hurts you, it probably hurts the person too. 18) A careless word may kndle strife; a cruel word may wreck a life; a timely word may level stress; a loving word may heal and bless.19) The beginning of love is to let those we love be just
themselves and not twist them with our own image -otherwise; we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.20) The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of
everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.21) Happiness lies for those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.22) Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss and ends with a tear.23) The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you can't go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.24) When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying...
1:52 AM
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张韶涵 - 其实很爱你
张韶涵 - 其实很爱你
离开 不会太悲伤
有些 心情该释放
直到 眼泪它 自己落下
才发现骗不了自己其实很爱你
现在 学着去遗忘
躲开 有你的地方
回忆 被谁放在书架上
把它从最高的地方 落下
感动越是深刻 寂寞就越伤人 Ho-Oh~
每个人的心里都会有一段 伤痕
像白纸的天真 反覆被你伤的好深
相爱不需要理由 离开也没有理由 挽留
现在 学着去遗忘
躲开 有你的地方
回忆 被谁放在书架上
把它从最高的地方 落下
感动越是深刻 寂寞就越伤人 Ho-Oh~
每个人的心里都会有一段 伤痕
像白纸的天真 反覆被你伤的好深
相爱不需要理由 离开也没有理由 挽留
感动越是深刻 寂寞就越伤人 Ho-Oh~
每个人的心里都会有一段 伤痕
像白纸的天真 反覆被你伤的好深
相爱不需要理由 离开也没有理由 挽留
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Till The End [The Outsiders OST]
Till The End [The Outsiders OST]All these precious moments, with you by my side
Must be gift from heaven
That's holding me all night
I don't know how I found you
I'm thankful that I have
Now that I have a love so true
To hope,to keep,to share
*In my heart I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this world, there is no place I'd rather be
You are my life,my soul,my girl
And through it all,
I know you've come to see, that you're the one
Till the end
All my friends around me
Say you'd be gone too soon
Baby I'm gonna make them see
We've found the way back home
*In my heart I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I used to hide
I'll always be with you until the very end
In this world, there is no place I'd rather be
You are my life,my soul,my girl
And through it all,
I know you've come to see, that you're the one
Till the end
1:47 AM
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今生注定
今生注定
总以为曾经付出曾被爱伤害过
这世上只有我对爱执着
直到我慢慢感受你的温柔
才了解
今生注定与你相守
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无怨无悔有几人
无怨无悔有几人
如果一切靠缘份
何必痴心爱着一个人
最怕藕断丝连难舍难分
多少黎明又黄昏
就算是不再流伤心泪
还有魂萦梦牵的深夜
那些欲走还留一往情深
都已无从悔恨
早知道爱会这样伤人
情会如此难枕
当初何必太认真
早明白梦里不能长久
相思不如回头
如今何必怨离分
除非是当作游戏一场
红尘任他凄凉
谁能断了这情份
除非把真心放在一旁
今生随缘聚散
无怨无悔有几人
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奇蹟
Sunday, June 10, 2007
奇蹟
今天毅峰又像以往的日子裡來到了醫院看芊。芊毫無生氣的躺在病床上整整兩年了，一場無情的車禍，導致他心愛的女友變成植物人。
他坐在床旁，悲淒地看著芊那蒼白的臉，伸手握住她那冰冷的手，回憶起那天突來的意外。
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“毅峰，芊出車禍了，現在還在醫院急救當中，你快點趕來！”芊的爸爸非常焦急地告訴他。
毅峰來到醫院，見伯父擔心的在急症室門外徘徊。伯父看見了他，眼帶淚水的說：“芊與迎面而來的車相撞……”
“伯父，你別傷心，芊一定會沒事的。”他激動地安慰伯父。
這時，急症室的紅燈熄了，醫生從裡面出來：“對不起，我們已經盡力。傷者因為失血過多，變成植物人了。”
伯父聽了難過得哭了起來。
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突來的開門聲，把他從回憶中拉回現實：“毅峰，你又來看芊啊？”芊的媽媽一開門就看見他。
“是啊！伯母。”他對伯母微笑。
伯母為難卻欣慰地說：“已經兩年了，你還放不下芊嗎？”
“我不會離開芊，我相信她一定會醒過來的。”說完便轉身望著芊。
“何必呢？你再等下去，她都不可能會醒的。”伯母覺得芊會醒過來的機會幾乎是零，所以她不想白白浪費他的時間。
“我也知道她醒來的機會很渺茫，但是我會一直等，就算是一輩子我也會等下去。
“伯母，我先回去了，下次再來看芊。”他悲傷地走出病房。
芊的媽媽看著毅峰的背影離開，再望向芊：“但愿奇蹟會發生。”
****
“嗨！今天又來看你的女朋友啦？”甜美的護士向毅峰打招呼。
“是啊！”
“芊，你已這樣沉睡了兩年，你還不愿起來嗎？”
每次來看芊，毅峰都會跟她說同樣的話，雖然不知她有沒有聽到，但還是想說給她聽。
他希望芊其實一直都聽得見他所說的話，只是張不開眼睛罷了。
“芊，你真的想繼續沉睡下去嗎？”
他看著她無聲無息的躺在床上，再也忍不住流下了淚。
“芊，不要再睡了！求求你張開張睛看看我，好嗎？”他傷心的流著淚，伸手輕觸她蒼白的臉龐。
“芊，時間不早了，下次我再來看你。”他擦乾眼淚，轉身離開。
其實，就在毅峰轉身時，芊的手輕輕地動了幾下。然而，毅峰沒注意到。
芊感覺到自己的手慢慢地能做出一點反應後，不管怎樣努力，眼睛卻張不開，但她相信終有一天會成功醒過來。
兩星期過去了，芊還是沉睡著，不曾張開過眼睛。
****
今天，毅峰重新帶著希望來到醫院。
“芊？”
她還是一動也不動的躺在床上。
“芊，雖然我不知道你幾時會醒，也不知道你會不會醒，但我會一直等，等到你醒為此。你應該覺得我很傻吧？誰叫你是我心愛的女人？我不等你，能等誰呀？我想跟你過一輩子的生活，快醒來。”
毅峰輕輕地握住她的手，深情的望著她那毫無生氣的臉。
雖然芊還是沉睡著，但她清楚聽到毅峰的深情對白，忍不住流淚。
就在那一刻，芊緩緩張開閉上了兩年多的眼睛。
“峰……”芊朝那震驚不已、眼睛睜得老大的毅峰，綻開了笑靨。
毅峰隨即撲上前，開心地揉著她，大叫：“醫生……快來呀！”
芊也忍不住喜極而泣。
****
過了幾星期，芊健康良好，可出院了。
今晚，毅峰和芊在他家吃晚餐後，在走廊邊蕩鞦韆邊聊天。
“峰，自從我昏迷後，你每次在醫院跟我說的話，我其實都聽得見，只是我一直張不開眼睛。直到那天，我終於成功張開了眼睛。你說，這是不是你帶給我的幸運奇蹟呢？”
毅峰聽了，緊緊地擁抱她：“別再想以前的事了，最重要是你終於醒來了。”
他望向黑夜裡的天空，知道現在的他已很幸福。因為奇蹟的出現，讓他能夠再把芊擁抱在懷裡。
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冰之驕子
Thursday, June 7, 2007
冰之驕子
再過幾個月，兩年一度的國際溜冰大賽即將開始。
今年的參賽者不只有上屆被公認為冰之驕子的齊銘，也有一些不可低估的新任選手參選，相信今年的大賽一定會十分激烈精彩。
說起那個冰之驕子──齊銘，他是某個上市公司的太子爺，但他並沒有因為他是有錢人而驕傲自大。
我跟他是認識了3年的好友，他也是我暗戀的對象。當然，他並不知道我暗戀他，他只是把我當成好朋友、好哥兒們。
他交了一個非常要好的女朋友。每天看見他們卿卿我我，我都會感覺到自己的心在淌血。雖然如此，我還是決定要默默在他身邊，當他的知心朋友。
在這幾個月裡，齊銘都在為國際溜冰大賽做準備。他幾乎天天都在練習溜冰，希望能在今屆蟬聯冠軍。
齊銘每天在他的私人溜冰場練習，他的女朋友都會在旁陪伴著他，羨煞旁人。為了不想打擾他和女朋友相處的時光，也不想看見他們恩愛的情形而讓自己傷心，我每次都會偷偷地躲在角落，默默地看著他，為他加油。
****
今天，我又到溜冰場為他加油了。我一來到，就看見齊銘躺在溜冰場上，痛苦的抱著他的右腳。我緊張地跑到他身邊查看他的傷勢，然後打電話叫救傷車送他去醫院。
齊銘被推進急診室治療後，我趕快打電話給齊銘的父母親：“伯父，我是阿詩，齊銘在溜冰場發生意外了，現在人在急診室裡治療，你們快來！”
我很擔心，不停的在心裡祈禱“齊銘，你千萬別有事……”
****
“你的腳嚴重扭傷，需要住院。”
“不行！醫生，再過兩個月我就要參加國際溜冰大賽，現在我不能住院！”齊銘的情緒非常激動。
“你不住院好好治療腳傷，恐怕以後就不能再溜冰了。”
“醫生，我兒子的腳傷勢如何？”齊銘的爸爸擔心地問醫生。
“傷者的腳嚴重扭傷，現在不好好治療的話，日後就很難再溜冰。”
齊銘的女朋友聽醫生這樣說，頓時目瞪口呆。
“齊銘，你不能再溜冰，就表示不能夠成為冰之驕子了。我要跟你分手。”他的女朋友冷漠地告訴他。
“為甚麼？我們不是一直都好好的嗎？”他不明。
“因為你被公認為冰之驕子，又多金，所以我才跟你交往，我只是想借你的名聲幫我提高知名度。”她無情的說完後，頭也不回的走出病房。
“我的腳現在不能再溜冰了……不能再參加大賽了……女朋友也不要我……”齊銘失去理智的大叫。
“兒子，你一定能再溜冰的……”齊銘的媽媽見他這麼激動，趕快安慰他。
“你們出去……出去……我不要看到任何人……”齊銘的情緒非常低落，他痛苦的躲在被子裡哭。
“伯父伯母，你們先回去吧！我會留下來照顧他的，你們放心。”看到自己心愛的人變成這樣，我心疼地流下眼淚。
“阿詩，齊銘有甚麼事，記得通知我們。”兩老心痛地離開病房前說。
“你別這樣，腳一定會及時痊癒，到時你還是可以溜冰。”
“時日無多，大賽就快要開始了。”他從被子鑽出頭來，雙眼通紅。
“不會的。醫生說只要好好治療，你以後就可以再溜冰。齊銘，我們一起加油，好嗎？”
****
那天起，齊銘很努力地接受治療。努力的背後往往是有成果的，他的腳在大賽開始前的半個月就康復了。
今天就是國際溜冰大賽的日子，齊銘望穿秋水，這一天終於來臨了。
“齊銘，你一定會得到冠軍的。”我一直替他加油。
“齊銘選手，請準備上台表演。”司儀通過揚聲器說。
齊銘上台後，憑著感覺開始溜冰。此時，他只感覺到自己和詩在一起的甜蜜時光。齊銘清楚自己的心意後，便露出幸福的笑容，繼續完成溜冰表演。
比賽終於來到尾聲，宣佈成績時，選手在後台緊張的等待成績揭曉。
“今屆的國際溜冰大賽冠軍是……齊銘選手。裁判一致認為齊銘選手所表演的溜冰，成功演繹出幸福的感覺，讓觀眾也倍受感動，那是其他選手都沒辦法表演出來的。”
語畢，全場歡呼起來，齊銘上台從負責人手中接過獎杯。
當我聽到齊銘獲得冠軍後，忍不住喜極而泣。齊銘等不及想與詩一起分享這份喜悅，快步下台尋找她的身影。
“詩，你知道為何我表演的溜冰，會讓人感覺到幸福嗎？”他幫我擦乾眼淚，兩手按著我的肩膊。
我搖搖頭。
“我溜冰時，腦海只想起和你在一起的快樂時光。詩，你願意一直陪在我身邊嗎？”
我等他說這句話等了很久了，我喜極而泣，用點頭表達自己的答案。
齊銘開心地整個抱起我，轉了一個圈又一個圈。
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邂逅
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
邂逅
那頭秀直亮麗的長髮，那微弱單薄的身軀，那略為蒼白但清秀絕倫的瓜子臉，及那帶點淚光的水眸，興那微微顫抖的朱唇……
深印在我腦中的記憶卡，像似中了病毒一般，無法刪除。
猶記得那晚，夏日的悶熱，令人無法忍受，我跑到了海邊，享受著那涼快的夜風輕拂在臉龐上的快意。
雙眼正注視著那遠處像天上星在向我貶眼般的燈塔之光，發愣著。
驀的一陣嘈吵聲打擾了我的“沉思”雅興。我望向聲量的來源處，那一男一女，就站在那街燈下。他們像在爭吵，但因相隔頗遠，沒辦法聽見他們吵些甚麼。
不知為甚麼，那女孩的身影從此就烙印在我的心中。
此後，我每晚都跑到海邊去，為的就是那莫名的衝動，想再見她一面。
多次跑到海邊呆等，終於讓我探聽到了些許故事，我發現他們每隔一星期就會在那出現一次，而每次的相會，都是爭吵收場，那女孩都帶著哀傷的神色離開。
而我，也傻傻地，在每星期的同一天，都到同樣的地方，以同樣的角度，偷瞄著她。
就這樣過了半年，今晚，海邊的夜風還是一樣的涼快，遠處的燈塔，還是一閃一閃的。
我目不輕睛地盯著街燈處，他們相會的地方。但是，出現的只有她。時間一秒一秒的過，我不停地偷瞄著她，但那男生還是沒有出現。
她呆坐在街燈下的石椅上，望著大海的遠處，神遊太虛。
她究竟怎麼了？那男孩怎麼沒出現？夜已深了，一個女孩置身在海邊寂靜的偏僻地方是很危險的，她難道不懂嗎？
頓時，無數的疑問與焦慮浮上了心頭。我那不聽話的雙腿拒絕了腦袋的命令，違令地走向她。
她流淚了，這一次，我看得很清楚，那微抖的肩膀，讓人望而生憐。
我不自覺地走近她，遞了一張面紙。她有點詫異地望向我，然後向我報以微笑。
那一笑，又成了我腦海中的另一個記憶。後來，我真正知道了他們的故事。
原來，那男孩是她男友，他們在半年多前相識，礙於她的課業繁重，家教嚴謹，所以一週只能約會一次，地點就在這裡。
但，每一次珍貴的見面機會，最後都在吵架中結束，每一次的約會都不歡而散。
這一點我很清楚，至於吵架的原因，她沒說，我也不多問。
令我訝異的是，她竟然也注意到我，還說每一次我都坐在那巨岩上，好像很孤獨似的。她的話讓我的心中一陣竊喜。
昨晚，他們分手了。
那晚，我帶著她在進行我孩童時期最愛做的事，把不開心的事刻在石岩上，讓那每天的漲潮，海浪把不開心的事都打散。
最後，她帶著笑容離開，我很欣慰，因為那笑容是我帶給她的。
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今天，我又到海邊去，懷著期待與興奮的心情，希望她會出現。但時間一分一秒過去了，她還是沒來。我有點失望。
無聊的我踱步到巨岩旁，看見她留下的“字跡”，訴說著她與他的故事，還有她的心情。
其中，她提起了我，在他離開後，她碰見了帶給她歡笑的男生，連她之前的男友都做不到的事，我做到了。
她的字裡行間透露著遺憾，遺憾沒早點碰上我。其實，我跟她早在半年前就碰上了，只不過時機不對，錯過了相識的良機。
我望向海上，那燈塔還是一閃一閃，那墜落的天上星還是對著我眨眼，我無奈地露出苦笑。
夜空中，一點小燈光一閃一閃地緩緩飛過，那是飛機在夜航中發出的訊號燈……
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Our parents
Monday, June 4, 2007
Our parents
A simple man tells how his booking an air ticket for his father, his first
flight, brought emotions and made him realize that how much we all take for
granted when it comes to our parents.
My parents left for our native place on Thursday and we went to the airport
to see them off. In fact, my father had never traveled by air before, so I
just took this opportunity to make him experience the same. In spite of
being asked to book tickets by train, I got them tickets on lufthansa.
The moment I handed over the tickets to him, he was surprised to see that
I had booked them by air. The excitement was very apparent on his face,
waiting for the time of travel. Just like a school boy, he was preparing
himself on that day and we all went to the airport, right from using the
trolley for his luggage, the baggage check-in and asking for window seat
and waiting restlessly for the security check-in to happen. He was
thoroughly enjoying himself and I, too, was overcome with joy watching him
experience all these things.
As they were about to go in for the security check-in, he walked up to me
with tears in his eyes and thanked me. He became very emotional and it was
not as if I had done something great but the fact that this meant a great
deal to him.
When he said thanks, I told him there was no need to thank me.
But later, thinking about the entire incident, I looked back at my life.
As a child how many dreams our parents have made come true. Without
understanding the financial situation, we ask for football, dresses, toys,
outings, etc. Irrespective of their affordability,they have satisfied to all
our needs. Did we ever think about the sacrifices they had to make to
accommodate many of our wishes?
Did we ever say thanks for all that they have done for us?
Same way, today when it comes to our children, we always think that we
should put them in a good school. Regardless of the amount of donation, we
will ensure that we will have to give the child the best, theme parks,
toys, etc. But we tend to forget that our parents have sacrificed a lot for
our sake to see us happy, so it is our responsibility to ensure that their
dreams are realized and what they failed to see when they were young, it is
our responsibility to ensure that they experience all those and their life
is complete.
Many times, when my parents had asked me some questions, I have actually
answered back without patience. When my daughter asks me something, I have
been very polite in answering. Now I realize how they would have felt at
those moments.
Let us realize that old age is a second childhood and just as we take care
of our children,the same attention and same care need to be given to our
parents and elders.
Rather than my dad saying thank you to me, I would want to say sorry for
making him wait so long for this small dream. I do realize how much
he has sacrificed for my sake and I will do my best to give the best
possible attention to all their wishes. Just because they are old does not
mean that they will have to give up everything and keep sacrificing for
their grandchildren also. They have wishes, too.
Take care of ur parents.
11:58 PM
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預言
預言
劉洋不斷搓著雙手，在產房外來回踱步。只要裡頭一發出聲響，就馬上緊張兮兮跑前去，將耳朵貼緊在房門，希望能聽見些甚麼。首為人父的無措，顯露無遺。
引頸長盼了好久，門終於開了。他一個箭步衝上前去，想要看看新生兒的模樣。躺在護士懷抱裡的寶寶小得可憐，啼哭聲卻特別響。可是，他的雙手沒有手指，根本只是兩團肉而已。
“啊！”他難以置信地踉蹌後退，驚恐盯著醫生。
“為甚麼會這樣？這是別人的孩子，對不對？”劉洋難以置信地說道。
“劉先生，你冷靜點，他真的是你的孩子。至於為甚麼他會變成這樣，我們暫時還沒有一個定論。”醫生試圖安撫陷入瘋狂的劉洋。
“這個如果是你的孩子，你又可以冷靜嗎？”他跌坐在地上，將頭深埋在雙膝中，放聲痛哭。天堂，頓時成了地獄。
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育嬰房外，站著淚眼相對的劉洋夫婦。
“寶貝，你怎麼會那樣？是不是媽媽吃錯甚麼東西，你才會變成這個樣子？媽媽該怎麼辦？”看著殘缺的孩子，她不禁流下淚來。
“不如把他送到其他專科醫院，看能不能補救。”劉洋想了幾個解決方法。
“要是醫不好，一輩子都那樣呢？”曹茜抬頭問道。
“當然得養他，難道把他丟在孤兒院不成？”劉洋煩躁地提高聲音，別過臉去，不想讓妻子看見他再度落下的淚水。
“先生，太太，你們怎麼這麼快就退縮了？”身後不知何時多了一把聲音。
兩人驚愕往後看，一名白髮蒼蒼的老者對著他們微笑。
“敢問老先生何出此言？”劉洋覺得老人話中有話。
“你們的孩子，可是中間的那位？”老者直指啼哭的寶寶。
“你怎麼知道？”夫婦倆驚訝得說不出話來。
“我看這孩子啼哭聲響亮，印堂發亮飽滿，加上高挺的豐厚鼻頭，還身處中央，將來必成大器，成就一番大事業。你們要好好教養他，別浪費了這孩子一生的好福份。”老者說完就轉身離開，很快就消失在走廊。
這時，一個護士遞給他們一樣東西。
“先生，太太，剛才有位老先生叫我拿這個小錦囊給你們。他說，待你們的孩子名成立就時方可打開，否則裡頭的預言將會無效，切記，切記！”
小心地接過錦囊，夫婦倆轉憂為喜，這孩子原來是上天給他們的禮物。他們再轉頭看孩子，他全身仿彿都散發著不同凡響的光芒。
孩子取名為劉煌，自從聽過老者的一番話，兩夫婦對於孩子的教養都親力親為，甚至下定決心不再生育，全心全意撫養他。
父母的耐心輔導，讓劉煌在充滿愛和關懷中長大，不但沒有因為雙手的殘缺而自卑，反而以才華證明自己一點也不比其他人遜色。
漸漸地，光芒四射的他，成為同學群中的領導者，舉手投足間展露了王者的風範，每年都是模範生的不二人選。
進入社會工作，擁有優秀的成績的他是許多跨國公司爭相招攬的對象。
結果，年紀輕輕就已是一家國際公司的總經理。他殘缺的雙手和故事，在媒體不停歌頌中，成了激勵和加分的優點。
當然，孝順的他，不斷地提起父母愛的教育，從來不把他當成殘障兒童對待，才造就今時今日自信滿滿的劉煌。
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“爸爸總是告訴我，做人要知恩圖報，不要給名利沖昏了頭。在高峰時期，要珍惜幸福；在低潮時，要承受痛苦，願以這句名言跟大家共勉之。”在一個訪談節目中，劉煌提起了老爸的忠告。
在家中看著電視訪談節目的兩老，老懷安慰望著彼此。這孩子總算不負眾望，成就一番大事業。老者當年的預言終於成真。
“當年的錦囊，你還收著嗎？”劉洋突然問起身邊的太太。
“收得好好的，我這就去拿。現在該是最佳時機了吧？煌兒已是成功人士了，哈哈。”邁開緩慢的腳步，曹茜取出藏在衣櫃內的發黃錦囊。
兩人慎重地打開裡頭，發現了一張小紙條。上面寫著︰“想必打開這個錦囊的時刻，你們的孩子該有一番大作為了。其實，我根本不是甚麼預言家，只因為看到你們夫婦倆似乎對孩子有嫌棄之意，才會胡亂編個荒唐的預言。但願懷著希望的你們，賦予這孩子更多的愛。眾生有好生之德，一念之間，可成佛，亦可成魔，望你們好好珍惜這個孩子。”
兩人對望大笑起來，心中卻是無限的感激。沒有老先生的一番“預言”，也許今天的劉煌會是在他們負面的教養中，成了流氓。劉煌成佛成魔，真的只在當時他們那一念之間。
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當他遇上她
當他遇上她
自從妻子車禍去世後，他轉了工作、換了車子、搬了家，甚至不再使用任何她喜愛的日用品品牌，不再光顧他們以前常光顧的餐廳，連她喜歡的食物都不再踫。一切，只為了讓自己能夠忘記她。
如果不是因為年邁的雙親，他早就離開這個盛滿他們回憶的城市了。熟悉的朋友都知道，他不願意回憶起她，也不允許任何人在他面前提起她。
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為了讓未婚夫與她之間的回憶永遠牢牢記掛在心裡，她堅持把他所有的東西留下來，即使一度為了償還房屋貸款而陷入經濟困境，她還是硬撐著，不願把房子賣掉，包括那輛已有十年車齡的汽車。
家理所有的日用品都是他常用的牌子，每個星期定期光顧他們定情的餐廳，點他最愛吃的餐點，點播他最喜歡的音樂；兩人的照片，以及送給彼此的禮物都完完整整地收藏著。
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那天在修車場裡，他第一次和她踫面。
“那車子對我來說真的很重要，如果你們不修，我送到別家去。”
“小姐，不是我們不願意修，我們只是告訴你狀況，你車子的引擎已經老舊不堪，車身又被撞成這樣，修起來起碼也要超過1萬令吉，而且日後還是會有許多問題，這樣真的很不划算，倒不如買輛新的，就算送到別家去，情況也是一樣的。”
“那……你讓我想想吧！可是，你們不能在未經我的同意，對車子做些甚麼。”
“放心吧，小姐，你過慮了。”
“她怎麼啦？我看見她好像在哭。”一名同事好奇地問道。
“吶，她的車已經毀成這樣了，她還堅持要我們幫她修理。說甚麼是未婚夫留下的遺物，她一定要保存起來。”另一名同事解釋道。
他望著她遠去的背影，心裡湧起一股莫名的憂傷。
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他第二次見到她，是在酒吧裡。當時，她已經微醉，他一眼就把她認出來。
當他正要離開時，她已醉得不省人事。
“小姐，你醒醒啊！”酒吧的侍者正為該如何處置她而煩惱。
“我送她回家。”他自告奮勇地幫她結賬，並打算送她回家。
離開酒吧後，他開始後悔自己多管閒事，他不知道自己應該如何處置她，這是他有生以來做過最荒唐的事，在酒吧裡把一個醉得不省人事的陌生女子帶走。
“爸媽，我朋友喝醉了，我讓她在這裡睡一晚。”最後，他決定把她帶回父母家裡。
第二天醒來，當她發現自己躺在陌生的房間時嚇了一大跳。
“請問……”她有點遲疑地問著眼前的老夫婦。
“你醒啦！先去洗把臉，我們家建雄去買早餐了。”
“建雄？誰是建雄？”
“我們的兒子阿Ben啊！”
“阿Ben？”她完全被搞糊塗了，兩名老人家所說的名字，她一點印象都沒有。
“不好意思，我先走了。”她頭痛欲裂，根本沒辦法厘清自己的思緒，只想快點離開這個陌生的地方。
“先吃早餐吧，待會兒我送你回去。”趕著離開的她正好和他正面相迎，見到這個把自己帶回家的男人以後，她覺得他似曾相識，但卻無論如何都想不起他到底是誰。
她感覺到他們並無惡意，所以接受了他們的建議，先吃過早餐，再讓他送她回家。
“我們認識嗎？”在車上，她終於忍不住問他。
“不認識，但是我們見過面。”
“在酒吧裡？”
“那是第二次，我們之前在車廠也見過一次。”
兩個陌生人就這樣成為了朋友，後來，他們才發現，原來彼此的另一半，都死於同一場車禍。
雖然，兩人採用了不同的方式來過活，一個忙著記住，一個忙著忘記，但其實都是把自己縮在自己的世界裡，根本沒有面對另一半已經逝去的事實。
“你知道嗎？我一直想把所有關於他的回憶留住，但是原來是不可能的，記憶會越來越模糊，連看到、握到的物質，也會隨著歲月的流失而褪色，車子、房子、家具、用品，甚至記錄我們生活的錄像帶和照片也會變質，世界上原來真的不可能有永恆。”
他的心一陣抽痛，首次流下淚來，原以為早已經忘記的她，再次浮現在腦海裡。聽著她邊哭邊訴說從前，他的情緒像缺了堤般全湧上心頭。
5年來，他首次放任自己思念妻子。也許，在同病相憐的人面前，實在沒有甚麼好隱瞞的。
“甄，我在想，我們是不是應該放下他們了呢？5年來，我們誰也不好過，或許，我們都不應該太執著。”
“你說得沒錯，他應該也不想看到我這樣的。”突然像找到新的領悟般，她的心仿佛不再那麼痛了。
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眼神
眼神
“爸爸，新年要到了。我的朋友們買了新衣。我也要買新衣……”
“別吵了，快去讀書！去！”一旁的太太幫我打了圓場。
夜裡，她在我耳邊悄聲地問：“怎樣？工作還沒有著落嗎？”
我搖了搖頭，發現了妻子眼中一閃而過的失望。三個小瓜期待的眼神、愛妻落寞的眼神……我還能做甚麼呢？一切都因為那個沒良心的老板辭退了我！
“老臣，真抱歉。我知道就快過年了，你的負擔也很重，但公司真的不行了。關於遣散費方面，就請你看在多年交情上讓我分期付款吧！”老闆輕描淡寫地說著，但這番話卻深深地撼動了我。
至今，我還記得那一字，一句。
記得當時，無論我怎麼求、怎麼說，他都只是將抱歉挂在嘴邊。從那天開始，他好像從人間消失了一般。
打從那天開始，我天天去應徵，可是卻竟然至今都找不到工作……真不知最近是走甚麼霉運！
今天，報紙上又刊登一宗掠奪案。這個世界到底在搞甚麼？社會病了、人人都病了嗎？難道這世界真的沒救了嗎？
“是了，這個是最快的方法了，反正現代的人都是沒良心的！富有的人拼命擠壓我們這種小市民；貧窮的人也是不知善為何物，把自己的人格藏進地底！我只不過是和大家一樣罷了嘛！”
“不行！這怎麼可以？！你不是一向來都看不起這些人嗎？你怎麼可以成為他們的一分子呢？”
“可是……再過一個星期就是新年了，家里的米糧也就快用光了，年貨還沒有買，新衣也還沒有著落！每年，我都會給孩子、老婆過得好、吃得好。今年怎麼可以……”心中反覆出現的兩把聲音困擾著我。
最後，我將菜刀放進肩包中，把心一橫，騎了電單車出發。平時不知節儉，沒有儲蓄，結果一個變化就擊倒了我，今天竟然淪落到這個地步……
按著良心，我告訴自己：只搶一個不會有事的。算他運氣不好咯，反正這個社會也沒甚麼好人了！所有人都不是好人！
一想到這裡，我連一絲的罪惡感也消失了。打定主意學人家掠奪，我決定向女生下手，轉過這個路口後，第一個出現的就是我的目標了！
主意一定，我就靠在小巷的牆邊假裝修理電單車，身後的腳步聲漸漸靠近。
我偷偷望了望後鏡，是個女的。四周沒有其他人了，看來是我開工的時候了。
我將手放進胸前的肩包內，準備拿出菜刀了。
“我不會傷害她，我只要錢！”我的心裡重複地告訴自己，希望自己能夠儘快完事。
一轉身，我的血液頓時像凝結了，放在包包裡的手和刀都拔不出來了。
這個人的眼神、氣質懾住了我……她整個人散發出來的磁場是那麼的善良和仁慈……
她望著我，眼神好像在告訴我：“我會包容你所有的過錯。甚麼事都會過去的。”
我怔住了，過了良久，她開口說道：“先生，你的電單車壞了嗎？有甚麼需要我幫忙嗎？”
見到她的眼神後，我連想騙她說電單車壞了的話也講不出口了。
“噢……沒事……”我好像做錯事的孩子。低著頭、小聲地回答著。
“沒事就好了。還以為電單車壞了呢，現在送修應該很貴吧？而且還要推一段很長的路。”
我尷尬地笑了笑，心中感激她喚醒了我塵封已久的善心，而她再次確定我不需要協助後才放心地離開。
最後，我也默默地轉身，騎著電單車離開。我知道，回家後也許得面對妻兒失望的眼神，但至少我沒有幹下讓她們蒙羞的事。
我想，不管過了多少年以後，我還是會感激這個喚醒我的眼神，讓我即時回到人生的正軌中。
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變臉
變臉
為您的美麗著想，令你的人生更璀璨美麗！
一踏入這家整容專科診所，就看到這大大的廣告牌。愛美是女人的天性，相信這句廣告詞打動不少女子的心吧。
曾經以為自個兒一輩子就這樣過了，不會因為臉部的疤痕而介懷，也不必在意疤痕會成為難找對象的阻力，一切隨緣。
但，當身邊的每個朋友都找到了伴侶，有了各自的空間，相對自己的朋友卻越來越少，頓時感到空虛。心中自忖，該是自己作出改變，找個伴侶的時候，還是順其自然？
28歲了，連一次戀愛的滋味都未嚐過，徐如貞的確有點難過。雖知姻緣不能強求，但她卻決定作出改變，至少改造形象，讓自己不會有遺憾。
這天，徐如貞來到一家整容專科診所，見到了即將為她整容的整形外科醫生莫凱澤。她沒有想過為她變臉的醫生是如此年輕，她禁不住問了他的年齡，結果莫醫生只是隨意回答她年近四十。
經過檢查，如貞額頭的疤痕仍有機會去除，不過長疤時間超過15年，要完全消除有點難度，除非施面部手術，將部分疤痕死皮去除，植入新皮。
如貞希望能在30歲之前有新形象，並找到終身歸宿，因此決定放手一試。她選擇了由文質彬彬的莫醫生操刀修飾有疤痕的臉部，連帶的眼部也會稍為整形。
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鏡子前，照著的是一名樣貌清秀，眼睛細小的女子。
“這是我嗎？真無法相信臉部的疤痕真的去除了，但不像我了。莫醫生，這個臉有點陌生……”如貞雙手撫摸著臉，但心裡五味雜陳。
莫醫生一直都很沉默，像是專心地為如貞檢查，但其實一直注視著如貞，驀然，眼眶泛紅。當他發現如貞同樣注視著他時，他馬上轉身。
“這張臉是有些不同，但卻是最好的，你慢慢就會適應了。”莫醫生說完就離開。
如貞雖對這張臉有點意見，但卻說不上來，畢竟是自己要作出改變。她並沒有發現這張臉背後的故事，根本也沒有想到她與某些人變得相似了。
相反的，莫醫生內心掙扎，情感交叉，他對兩張臉感到混淆，但他不敢告訴他人。他每次在為如貞檢查時，就不期然地注視她，而且也希望從她身上了解更多。
“你相信記憶投射嗎？人的經驗系統其實由形象記憶、情感記憶及邏輯記憶組成。當某些人過於懷念另一個人時，就會產生記憶的投射。”莫醫生問如貞，她搖搖頭。
“有人說，世界上有三個人樣貌相似，你又相信嗎？如果有一天，你發現有人和你長得相似，你會感到驚訝或不安嗎？”
如貞覺得莫醫生的問題很奇怪，但她只回應沒有想過這個問題，所以也不知道會有甚麼感覺。
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經過多次的接觸，再加上莫凱澤的關心，他倆譜出了一段新感情。這是如貞的初戀，所以她非常小心呵護。雖然內心一直擔心凱澤會介意她並非“原裝”美女，但她卻不敢向他問個明白。
凱澤越來越覺得對如貞的感情投入太深，但他同時懷疑自己是不是真心的，還是抱持著“新感情，舊回憶”呢。人都有軟弱的時候，凱澤終在夜深人靜的時候，獨自流淚。
“對不起，如貞，你能原諒我嗎？”午夜時分，失眠的凱澤將凌君怡的照片抱在懷中。他鼓起勇氣，撥電給如貞，請求原諒。
原本，莫凱澤一直放不下一段感情，也不曾原諒自己害死了心愛的人。
凌君怡是凱澤大學時期的女友，兩人當時準備在畢業後共結連理。然而，因為凱澤一次疏忽駕駛，發生了嚴重車禍。
同車的君怡連四方帽都來不及戴上，就已走了。人生何其短，所有人都難以接受她的離逝。特別是凱澤，他自責，甚至想過放棄生命，一命還一命。
但，當醫生的夢想就快達到，而且雙親有待侍奉。心中的懼怕，使他沒有做出自我了斷的事。然而，從那時候起，他就面對心理問題。
心理學上，自責造成悲觀的心理，而凱澤苛責過深而失去信心，不敢再談戀愛，直至遇到如貞，覺得她與君怡有相似之處，最後將如貞整形成君怡的臉。
感情路，有點迷惘，但真正迷亂的卻是凱澤自己。他的心理受了傷害，但假裝堅強，刻意逃避，長期下來，漸漸迷失了。
“不！不！這不可能，你不會這樣對我。為甚麼要這樣傷害我，我不要這張臉！”如貞眼淚直流，有心如刀割的感覺。
傷害已經造成，如貞無法接受自己只是別人的替身，也不敢相信這張臉是別人的，她決定到韓國重新整形，變回原本的她，一張屬於自己的臉。
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